This fog is not much different than the hazy fog I have found to be a condition in my on life at times. The things, situations, or people around me seem to become very dense and begin to suffocate and crowd out the clarity in my life. I begin focusing more on my doubts and more on those little messages of The Liar, The deceiver, The evil one. These messages only add to the dense fog I feel and begin to become stagnant and not move. These messages begin to take away the clarity of The Truth, The one who never leaves me lonely or alone, The Savior, The Way. I get to a point where all I feel is lonely and I focus on this and the fact that no one really understands.
"But I go before you as well as alongside you,
so you are never alone. Do not expect anyone
to understand fully my ways with you, any more
than you can comprehend My dealings with others.
I am revealing to you the path of Life day by day,
and moment by moment. As I said to my disciple
Peter, so I repeat to you: Follow me."
This was written by Sarah Young in Jesus Calling.
God is with me every moment even in those moments I feel like I am trying to decipher the writing on the wall or trying to find the words in the puzzle the world around me has lay before me. The more I focus on the puzzle, the more I tend to live based on the Tree of the Knowledge of Life and Death. I begin looking at things from the perspective of what is wrong and right and I begin to "try harder" to live the way I think God wants me to live or try to be more "Christlike". I, like Adam and Eve, begin to lose site of the fact that I am already "Christlike" because
God himself said, "Let us make man in Our image,
according to Our likeness"…God created man
in His own image, in the image of God He created him;
male and female He created them… God saw all that He
had made, and behold, it was very good."
I was Created in His image from the beginning and yet when life becomes hazy and I lose site of this path He has me on day to day I try to improve on something that is already right. Steve McVey wrote "Watchman Nee once described it this way:"Oh, the folly of trying to enter a room that you're already in."
I want out of the fog, the haze, the thing that takes away my clarity. In order to do this though I must trust, simply trust as some say. Trusting has never been simple for me though. But Jesus says "Follow Me".
"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path."
Am I willing to use that lamp and trust Him with the path He has me on no matter the haze or how dense the haze gets? It is now my nature to do so because His spirit is in me but am I willing to not fight that nature today, this moment? Living this life requires me to just trust and let go allowing him to be my strength and my sight and my guide.
Take me Lord and teach me. Help me today by being my strength, my sight, and my guide. Open my eyes that I may see. Open my ears that I may hear. Open my heart that that I may know you more!